A Father Dreams…
I’ve been suffering insomnia for a while now, waking up anytime between 2:30 and 5:30 (with the target being rising at 6:00) and not being able to fall back to sleep. I’m beginning to think I may as...
View ArticleEmotional Abuse
One of these days, I intend to write some about my childhood and relationship with my father, how I believe my struggles with depression are rooted there, and how I think I have become a very good...
View ArticleA Man of Action, Guided By Reason, Motivated By Love
No one, not even me, ever knew my father’s first name. Everyone always just referred to him by his last name, in classic tough guy style, and my dad was definitely a tough guy. Yet he was no thug, no...
View ArticleGood Memories of 2010, Day 5: 1978
In 2009, my ex and I established a Christmas tradition of sharing music from our youths with my son by giving him a representative sampling from the year we were his current age. This year, he’s...
View ArticleTaken By The Wind (A Personal History, Part 4): The Sound of Her Wings
Death is always with me. I think I first met her Christmas Eve, 1965. I was still a season short of two years old, living in Missouri with my mom who had fled back to her parents’ home to escape my...
View ArticleThe Passion of the Tim
"It's just the beast in me..." --Elvis Presley, JAILHOUSE ROCK Hiatus over. The past couple of days were rough ones. Kate and I were getting along wonderfully again, then POW, we stumbled over some...
View ArticleLittle Star (Song of the Week, 1/17/2012)
Last night, Stevie Nicks’s cover of “Not Fade Away” cycled up on my musical playlist and my son and I were bop-bop-bop bop-bopping around the Byrdcave, having fun. I told him it was a Buddy Holly...
View ArticleOn Father’s Day, I Honor My Son
It is Father’s Day, yet I do not honor my father. My father was an abusive drunk who put me through years of hell and regularly did everything he could to crush my spirit. He did a hell of a lot of...
View ArticleNews From The Darkness: A Personal Update As I Clamber Toward Daylight
Where have I been? How am I doing? What’s happening with the Doc Wilde books? Or any other writing I might be doing? It’s time for a general update, and probably past time for a Doc Wilde update since...
View ArticleTalking About Death With My Kid
Reading back through old journals, I found this from January 3, 2003: Nathaniel really moved me this afternoon. He was “predicting” and predicted I’d die when I was 110. I said that sounded just fine...
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